Andy is lending me Kurt Vonnegut's "A Man Without a Country," and I love it. It isn't making me think in new directions, but it perfectly highlights everything I think about anyway. It allows me to think critically and be analytical
However, just sitting and the dinner table today, with tons of thoughts running through my head, I realized: Wow, I'm a pretty negative person, and I have so much to be thankful for. You guys are the best friends I've ever had. I just think back to a year ago, and I really had no close friends at school. The "friends" I did have effing ditched me around October, leaving me with NOBODY to hang out with. Although I didn't want to, I latched on to Lauren. It's not like Lauren was an absolute bitch and I hated being around her. We mutaully agreed to go and find friends on our own, so this seemed to be a huge renig on my part. But, lo and behold, our friend groups crossed and we all know the rest. I was thankful for Lauren, today. And everybody else : )
Anyway, the point of what I'm saying is that I need to think more positively. I can't fix everything or be an advocate for everything. Of course i dont encourage anyone to sit around and let injusitices take care of themselves--I just wish people could stop thinking critically of everything because in the end, you may perhaps make things seem worse in your head. I have never been so happy in my life. Why should I dwell on everything thats going to suck in the future? The direction of my life is right on course to where I want it to be, thanks to my best friends. I can't wait to see everybody.
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You're right...about everything...as usual. I really do need to start looking for the positives more often even if it is hard to when surrounded by negativity. I love everyone too and I finally feel, for the first time, like things are going in a direction I want them to go. :) Yeah for you reawakening the true purpose of this holiday. I'm so glad that we all met and that we are all now each others' best friends, even out of home people. You couldn't be more on target with what you said in this entry.
On a side note, the Vonnegut book is totally what you said - it's things you already know and believe, but he just writes it in such a better, and more humourous perspective. That's what makes it so good I think.
yay
Thank you, that really means a lot to me. I'm thankful for you too, and for everyone else. It's funny, I was sure we'd never see each other at Ithaca, that you'd find your group of friends and we wouldn't really be friends. I'm glad we're still friends, and that we're all friends.
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