I generally search for symbols in my life, trying to mesh everything around me with what I'm feeling at that moment. Naturally, the beginning of a new year, semester, and president have become a symbol of my own life. I know that if I could cut my life into periods, I would have one giant 19 1/2 year one and one that seemed to have started this weekend. While my life isn't completely veering in another direction, it is getting there in a way that I never saw coming, and I couldn't be happier about it. Within the past couple of months I can honestly say that I have had the happiest moments of my life. I can finally be comfortable with what I do for a living, who I choose to live it with, how I'm going to achieve my life goals, and what I have to do to make sure I get there.
I'm setting the bar high for myself this semester. I have my sights on a 4.0 and I won't be content lowering it to fulfill my present wants to be lazy or not do my best. I pay too much money to go here, so I shouldn't be wasting the opportunity to perform with quality and turn in quality work. Do I honestly think I'm going to get a 4.0? No. But if I only think of setting the bar for 3.7-3.8, I won't even get close. I need to strive to be as close to perfect as possible. My cumulative average right now is about a 3.0. Not even close to an accurate representation of my work ethic or my drive to do well. Freshman year was garbage. I couldn't wait for that year to be over, wanting to go home almost every weekend, and certainly not wanting practice or do my work. Sadly, I can't redo it or start over even though I wish I could for every reason I can think of. The most I can do now is strive to be perfect. I think the highest average I can graduate with is a 3.6 now, but I don't know the exact method of calculating it. I'm not even happy about that. I suppose the goal would be to show significant improvement throughout my last 5 semesters. Hopefully I can find a way to do it. I feel good about it now. I have the motivation to do it now.
